My Early 2010 Explosion

The table has been turned. And I am guilty.

A rebel act that I did and I regret later on, never had I planned to keep it a secret, but never did I thought that other half will figure it out.

Everything is justifiable when I did it before. It doesn’t sounds so bad when what I am thinking of is to get even. But now, as everything is good, everything is okay and steady, I just had my early New Year explosion.

No more skeletons in my closet, a slip of secret that is good as a nightmare but end up a more open selves and cleaner mind and spirit. I know that it happened for a reason… a sample of a bad revelation but resulted purity not only to us, but to various people that surrounds us. I thought that night was the ending, as we all said farewell to 2009, so as to the 3 years of countless moments, sacrifices and love for each other.

It was a shame, and having too much of that, that night… it slipped my mind to send a good soul trapped in my playful self. A scream from heart told me that we can still work it out right, a push of thoughts from my mind told me that there is room for understanding and forgiveness. I did what I did.

Would like to send you my deep sorry. Would like to send you my tightest and warmest hug. And most especially, my biggest THANKS.

New year. Better self.

Most Promising Star

I never thought that a night of Christmas celebration; Booze, Good food, Dance contest & glamorous self & atmosphere, something surprisingly beautiful will add up to that very special night. December 18, 2009, as my company (JDB Holdings, Inc.) honors the yuletide season. It puts a mark on my calendar so as my life history. It’s more than a Christmas party to me.

To recognize and acknowledge your worth is one of the greatest. In a very short span of time (4 months and 7 days to be exact) I felt at home, secured and the huge feeling of belongingness took over. As I took the risk of leaving a dream job & subject myself to a whole new different career & environment, it paved way for me to be more comfortable & the sense of being an achiever.

It may not show, but I was really surprised and touch by that little piece of glass with my name on it stating that I am the “Most Promising”. My name to be called on stage to receive the award create goosebumps and numerous times of smiles on my face. I’ll work triple… I want more of that of course!


All I know, the reason why I am performing well, is because I am surrounded with good people that motivates and bring out the best in me. You all know who you are, Thank you for pushing me to the limits and for inspiring me

Question of Intention

Its not betrayal but a Question Of INTENTION.

I thought sorry is parallel to "I will not do it again", but you did.

I am not coming clean... I am no saint... and I don't project and act like one.
This rule is a part of your book and not mine. If you could have predicted that you cannot live by your rule, we should have followed my path.

Please don't do this to me... I am running out of reasons to justify what my heart felt towards you. I am running out of reasons to be proud of you. Love is like a soak denim to a water swimming in chlorine. Even love fades.

the sequence is in circles... can love support the bone even trust & respect is already unchained?

You can never explain yourself to everybody, especially those who got involved by your own pick. The cause might look easy in the eyes of forgiveness, what is unforgivable is that YOU BROKE YOUR OWN RULE.

Never ever, stepped on your planted trap again.

The Unplug Connection: Now connected

Out of the blue, online and I made significance.

It’s been a while, this page is almost insignificant. Failed to update my personal connection to the world wide web. Versus before, this used to be my confidant and my friend who never got tired of hearing my life rants and accepts whatever I say, who doesn’t want that?

Online is a life to me now. Bread and butter comes from online, almost ¾ of my day was spent typing on browsers, sending emails and updating my critical & social side and feeds my entertainment crave. What did I miss? I skip my Blogging life & I miss it.

Couple of months it is, so much to talk about… so many things happened, really don’t know where to start filling the gaps of wasted stories & life’s excitements. Maybe that is what I am waiting for all this time, an acknowledgement and for someone to miss the words I used to publish.

SIGNIFICANCE is more tougher now & never the link should be postponed that long. Blogging is certainly worth doing. I don’t keep any journal nor a diary & sharing a piece of me is not so bad after all. To inspire is exciting & I want more of that.

Diversity

Talking about differences, I must agree that it is indeed present. But even though we are bounded with distinction, one thing is for sure, dissimilarity is less felt when you are giving good attitude towards your colleague. Goodness results oneness.

Feel how many listens to you wholeheartedly. Sense how many digest your word not because they have to, but because they want to. Imagine how many laugh at your jokes when your perky, no preservative added on haha’s and no painted fake smiles. Count how many consider you as an inspiration.

Sometimes, to be appropriate is not the term, to be right is relative but to be good is universal. Fear loneliness, fear being alone.

HOLY WEEK GETAWAY: Pangasinan,Laoag,Kang-kang,Pagudpud,Vigan

One unplanned North tour of the Philippines.

A new discovery.

True Nature. True Creation.

To experience north would justify every positive word that I am talking about. I have few adventure of my own country, but this particular tour somehow filled-in [for the mean time] my urge to tour Philippines. For the mean time, I got pretty much satisfied with what I have seen and experience. Even up to this point, I can't still get over it. I miss it...

9... 10... 11... 12, those are the numbers that are most of us are guilty having it encircled on our April calendar of 2009. I sure you look forward to that date, but my initial plan for that is to have time to relax and more time to offer for sleeping. But that didn't happened, I didn't know, that there is a better way to relax.. and it is not to put my body to peace, but to fill those eyes with great scenery. My Holy Week getaway of 2009 is trully a hit!

We are heading north, excitement filled my system... coz we are not going to my usual north trip that offers coldness, lot'sa vegetables and great ukay-ukay buys (pertaining to Baguio), now its way way up... way way different, ILOCOS [Pagudpud] is our main destination. We are travelling by land, but I have no idea, that to experience Paradise would entail you to give those ass several cramps, as to my computation, 15 hours or more... that spells out ILOCOS. But no complains.. it was certainly worthit.

What makes this trip more fun, is that I am not expected to open my wallet and share some couple bills for the bills, its a Trip Treat, thats the best thing when travelling with family [thanx to Mr. & Mrs. Whitney]. A couple of hours was spent, it was tiring, not to mention that I slept late and have to wake up early to avoid the traffic w/c is a normal situation in Philippine road. Surprisingly, we did, but the long gap did not made our reach fast. Our first stop was in PANGASINAN, the very famous Manaoag. Since its Holy Week, we owe some prayers and a divine intervention vis-a-vis to our planned getaway... it made the travell longger, but the scenery, the delecacies there... no complain... certainly a plus to our trip.

I lost count about time, but I am serious, its eff'n long when we reached Laoag. We plan to have some early beach encounter, stop by a public beach to have some quick snack and some bone stretching. Everyhting is so fresh, the air, the view, the water.. I mean everything. As soon as I got out the car, I went rushing to the beach shore to feel its virginity. My eyes kept telling me about Treasures, even rocks there can be kept as a souveneir, its so amazing. After that, its getting late and dark. Uncle who does the driving is also tired [I feel for him, and I felt bad not knowing the skill to drive]. We could have reached Pagudpud that same day, if only there is a substitute driver. So we planned to search for a resort at that very moment, and we found GERTES RESORT. I guess to keep everything in balance, it is always required to experience a not so good one along the trip. Gertes resort is a 5 thumbs up rating.. on the negative aspect... Poor service, over priced poor cooked food and the place? just avarage, but to consider their pricing, its below average. Sad to say... but it was quite an experience.

Another day has come, and couple of hours will be spent for some travel again... but hey... another 3 hours is nothing compare to what we have gone through. Counting times, then I am beginning to see an attraction. Huge Electric Fans... ooppps Hell NO! I am just not used to it... never thought that we have it here, WINDMILLS is what I see. In the modest place like KANGKANG... behind the very smelly place name hides a very marvelous spot. Windmills along the beach. Darn Amazing, it is very huge, its very modern and its unusual. I love it.

Pagudpud is now in reach.. my eyes can spot now the blue ocean from afar. The air is very much different now... sun striking so wild, and I can wait to dip my bodies on to that water and sand. As we park down the car, I rush outside and digest every wonderful scene my eyes can capture. We are in SAUD to be exact, where the Beach hotel, party strip is located. We spoted ARINAYA resort since it is in the top most row to have our late lunch. This time, food is better in terms of taste and price... their watermelon is the most remarkable dish, the 50 bucks fruit quenched my entire body with its juice and right sweetness. I so darn love it!

The next story? I swim myself out... trying to maximize my time to be with Mr. Pacific Ocean, I can't help it, but the strange sun heat has no effect on me. I am so ready to tan, nothing can stop me at that very moment.

We went there with no reservations at all, all of us are Pagudpud novice. So first things first... hotel searching is our drama. Every hotel of the top most row are fully booked, a blessing in disguise I have to say, as we end up renting the Penthouse room of the Mediterenean Inspired Hotel resort on that same strip named TERRA RIKA.

I drown myself, got some henna tatoo, fiest to the great food the place offers, fiest my eye with the great scenery. Camera whoring, buko sipping, sun bathing, sand castle, souveneir shopping, watched Bikini Summit and Party hard that night. My happiness was well defined.

Sad to say, great things come to an end, that is the time that we have to leave pagudpud... I am just a step away from my goodbye... i felt the miss for the place. I fell in love with Pagudpud. That is how wonderful the place as well as the people living there.

Just when I thought that its over, I was wrong.. Good things got extended. We are heading to VIGAN.

Who says that time machine is an impossible invention? the disclaimer here is that you can only go backwards. Your machine is just your car and the formula is your long hour travel patience and a bit of effort & you can definitely go back to time. I've experienced it through VIGAN. I felt like I am now involved in the Philippine history.. the place is so significant to our country, you can feel it and visualize it. I am very happy that there is still a place like this that exists.

We did a lot of camera whoring, thanks to my brothers DSLR that managed to capture the exact beauty of the place. But ofcourse, I was able to load up my lomo with film on our Vigan stay [can't wait to develop it]. We did a lot of shopping there... Vigan shirts, jars, antiques, bags and their famous longganisa and chichacorn for pasalubong. 3 hour stay is not bad enough to tour Vigan.. if we only have more time, it could have been better. :)

Well thats the end of my trip... hitting 4 place in one trip is certainly a bang!

Need I say more? just check out my holy week getaway pics.

My Sorry, My Mistake, My Explanation: THANK YOU

Just felt the need to create this writing for my self questioning status due to an unplanned holy week trip.


Have you ever stepped on a commitment, because of a sudden family gathering?


Yes! I am guilty of it, and I honor my mistake. I just want to say sorry for keeping you hanging that quick. But I just want you to know that this is not because I consider this as a better trip, but it's because, its family.


This is where my dilemma comes in, I hate being torn between two important entities of my life. I am a person brought with so much attraction with the family, this is where usually people see me differently. Most often the not, I always go for family. People often think that made them less important, I just can't help it. That is the most accurate decision I know. For this particular issue, I just know you would understand more. I know you have more understanding to give, more than the number of family members who will judge me for saying no. Not man enough, but intelligent I consider. And knowing I would suffer the decision with you, that made my choice man enough. (you think so?)


I have great respect for the word PROMISE, not as a defense but as an explanation. I always practice empathy rather sympathy, since I also know how it feels like to be stricken by a broken promise. THE GOLDEN RULE. Family is just a weakness.


I'll make it up to you. I PROMISE.

Holy Week: My Plan

Everyone is excited and looking forward for Holy Week. Since today, Semana Santa connotes a different thing, far from what it is ought to be. The expected moment of solice, silence and simplicity is now spent as a time to relax, to have fun, to spend and escape from work and pressure. Come to think of it, that is how wonderful and universal Jesus sacrifices for us, even up to this point we could still feel how his crucifiction result to a light and fun life for us. His week sets vacation for us.

There is completely nothing wrong with having fun during this season, but we should always keep in mind the real essence and how we are expected to behave towards this moment. If fasting can be performed, abstinence ect. it would be appriciated. Little sacrifices is still a credit than offering nothing. Offering a prayer, joining pabasa (if u wish) or attending significant church seremenials that honors Holy Week are some that we could do. As to me, it started last year, as I joined some friends who does Bisita Iglesia (Body of Christ:Church visiting) around Metro Manila. Walking long distance from church to church, striking heat of the sun, dehydration, a little starvation, jampacked churches, anything that pains me a little defines my Holy Week sacrifices. Its not as bad as I described it, since I am with my friends, a chance to visit churches that looks very good on my Lomo Camera is my little credit to that, and a chance to tour Manila.

Me and my friends are also planning to Beach a little on somewhere south... like Batangas. Somewhere cheap, fun and cozy to spend Holy Week. To Tan a bit could be a part of my sacrifice list. :)

Bout ya, whats your HOLY WEEK plan?

Buying Independence: A shift

Its been a while... My usual everyday blogging has now turned into a bi monthly routine.

Its no rumors, because I am really back in business. Just right on time even before novice fill in every job slots in town, and mine is really a big break, and I owe it to my answered prayers.

More than my new job that I am hoping to last (for a couple of years), I am now buying my independence. Yes, as my life turns its pages, along is my decision to live on my own. I am not under estimating my capacity now, besides this is the best arrangement I could think of to not tire and pain myself in everyday long travel, traffic, nasty MRT and how to get home dillema when its already late.

I am in a very demanding area of career, talking about fixed time in or out, that doesn't work for me now. I have to love Overtime and office sleep over's from now on. It sounds unhealthy though, but I am on my adjustment worth proving & learning stage (take that!), so I have to deal with it. So far, I am having a great time, and learning the craft is a bit clashing but tolerable and challenging.

Laundry, cooking, washing dishes and grocery is not so bad after all, my bounderies are extending and I am very happy with the result. This is not about renting a bed space and this is more than being close to work and the accesibility, this is about Buying my independence and I am loving the idea.

My Science Crave: Newly discovered Planet NIBIRU, real or not?

Science never failed to interest me, I am a fan of the consistent change of the universe. Though I am not a hardcore scientist, in little steps like surfing the net or watching my favorite National geographic or Discovery Channel somehow satisfy my out of this world cravings.

To be very particular, I am a fan of anything planet, astological or new bound species, That is certainly my favorite topic. Once, it was featured in an extraterrestrial segment of Discovery channel about the darwin X, a planet that was found through a probe that contains weird animals, climate, weather and creatures. National Geographic did a segment of that as well, but both left me hanging and crave for more. I even search the web, but I failed to see it. Visit a video store, but it was not there. There wern't any follow up stories too.

On my continues search on Darwin X, I found something else, a similar topic though it was a different subject, but this is more significant to be and so as to everyone else. This was discussed in the mainstream and was not kept secret to the public, but I was very unaware of this news, and right after discovering it, I found myself Googling it over and over on the web.

Known as the Twelft planet, The Tenth Planet, Planet X but very popular in the name NIBIRU. The anomalous body was first spotted in 1983 by IRAS (Infrared Astronomical Satellite). But it was in 1976 that a man named Zetchara Sitchin published a book entitled The Twelft Planet that became very controversial. The book elaborates translation of Sumerian texts that told incredible story of human kind on earth.

6,000 years ago, there was a race of being called Anunnaki [stands 8feet - 35 feet, they have wings and can fly], a race that visited the Planet Earth from a planet in the solar system which is NIBIRU. Nibiru's orbit around the Sun is highly elliptical, according to Sitchin's books, taking it out beyond the orbit of Pluto at its farthest point and bringing it as close to the Sun as the far side of the asteroid belt (a ring of asteroids that is known to occupy a band of space between the orbits of Mars and Jupiter). It takes Nibiru 3,600 years to complete one orbital journey. The Anunnaki came to Earth through a spaceship and made the visit in purpose, and that is for gold that they will use to protect its diminishing planet.

From the time that Earth and Nibiru met, after thousand of years, the return should take place between year 2012 & 2013, December 21, 2012 to be exact [12/21/12]. This is one significant time, if this is real, what should we expect? or is this is just a Sitchin myth? The planet really do exist... but do Anunnaki's are true? How authentic are the cueniform writings that Sitchin interpreted? Many questions, I just hope answers arrived even before the day came.

Intresting right?

Source: http://paranormal.about.com/

An amazing Nikon camera and Latex Balloon Probe on Earth

Four (4) Spanish students proved that a Nikon digital camera and a latex baloon could result to a worthwhile and groundbreaking creation/experiment.

To Google it is not the only remedy to a project that requires a picture of the earth atmosphere and surface. Pagasa could not be the only source for weather forecast, actually, you can do it on your own. Proven and guaranteed amazing.

A small experiment that gave this four (4) spanish student a life changing exposure due to their uncomplicated but pretty much amazing probe to the earth surface. They call this creation METEOTEK. Compose of a typical Nikon digital camera, a small house of detailed device and a latex baloon that brought METEOTEK 20 miles up earth. They were able to gather fresh shots of the earth surface/atmosphere with this device. They were able to trace where METEOTEK was going through Google earth.

I was blown away by this news, considering that these students are pretty young, and the idea is so clever but made sense and delivered a very outstanding result. When I was a child, I have dremt of flying on a baloon & wonder where a baloon that swept into my hand goes, but never did I thought to attached a camera on it and let it clip the travel. Certainly there is nothing new with the shot taken by METEOTEK, but the process alone made it so marvelous. I salute.

Mr. Funanimous Supports: 60 Earth Hour

MR. FUNANIMOUS SUPPORTS

Many of us are concern. Many of us sympathized with the world situation. A lot of us has this plan of contributing and helping the world, but the big question is... WE DON'T KNOW HOW.

One significant date and an hour of small sacrifice but can effect change and earth betterment.

83 countries. 2,398 cities signed up and showed concern in resolving global warming. Let's not waste our chance to participate and be involve in saving our land from danger.

MARCH 28, 2009, an hour of darkness can revive the entire land. Let's all together switch off our lights from 8:30 PM - 9:30 PM. Be a part of this advocacy. Let us show the government that we are taking a step to fight against global warming.

There are many reasons to VOTE EARTH.

Modern Toilet Resto: Can you handle it?

Both FOOD and COMFORT ROOMS/TOILETS are mans necessity. But two are totally repelling elements, but combining the two, do you think you can handle it?

I am watching TODAY (America's Morning Show), and they feature this intresting resto. Then later I've noticed, I am on my desk, surfing for more details about this one of a kind chain in Taiwan. I just can't wait to share it with everybody, and let you feel the excitement, the negative and positive reaction i've experienced towards this naughty eatery.

Meals will never be the same again. Two things, Its either you'll love it or you will find it totally disgusting. To be ironic, most of the times means unique but the uniqueness of this food chain has a twist bordering fun and being nasty. What I am talking about is the popular resto built in Taiwan in the year 2004, the remarkable but odd MODERN TOILET RESTO.

Sometimes, Big Ideas could be found in the most awkward yet familiar place to us. Who would have thought that merging food and toilet could be a big hit? Everything you could possibly found in a toilet/CR. You sit on toilets, you eat on it and drink on urinals. It may seem disgusting but all I could think of now is excitement, fun and I do want to try it out. I don't think that the toilet stuff could affect the taste of the food their offer, its appetizing to my eyes.

The idea started out when one of the owners is reading Manga, Dr. Slump on the toilet... and everything follows. They open their doors as an ice cream parlor, serving ice cream in this weird familiar shape on a squat toilet containers. The idea scratch curiousity to people and once they have tried it out, it result smiles on their feces..oopps i mean faces. They evolve from an serving ice cream to serving everything and started branching out as well, they opened their second store at Hong Kong at year 2007.

Gold is definitely everywhere. Sometimes, all it takes is creativity and a keen eyes to see it.

I am no self-aclaimed fan.

But there was a point in my life when I used to sing along with his songs playing in my walkman. A point in my life, where I tuned to channel 13 at exactly 3:00 pm to hear and see his kaleidoscope song & MTV. My all time favorite.

Its ironic but it created a huge impact to the Philippine music scene. On how this man bridges the gap between hip-hop and rock. And how his songs continues to inspire people, particularly the youth. More than anything else, this man put some pride and glamour to our being FILIPINOS. There is no other man who made all those things possible but FRANCIS "Kiko" MAGALONA.

March 6, 2009, a big news hit televesion and radio, an unwanted breaking story, an unwanted announcement (at Eat Bulaga to be particular) that created a massive shock to every Filipino, the death of the Phillipines Master Rapper, Francis M. At a very young age of 44, suffering from cancer of the blood/leukemia he passed away at the Medical City hospital. Its almost 5 days now, but the same mourn & pain covers the entire country. Yesterday, March 10 was the last day of wake for our dearest artist, and was brought to Funeraria Paz Araneta QC for his cremation. And today is his burial. To our dearest FRANCIS M., you might be physically away, but your content and soul remains alive to each and every one of us. May you rest in peace.

Missing Wardrobe Pieces...

Clothes are confidant. And now that I have nothing to do and no bread's entering my card, everything turned out to be a dream. 3 months ago... I was able to go home every week end with several paperbags on my hands... and my gone think wallet not becaus of money but with the receipt that I kept. It stayed like that for a while, but I know not for long... im 50 % optimistic and 50% realistic on that thought.

It's effi'n hot once again, and short's and breathy clothes are definitely "IN", not "IN Fashion" sense, but "IN" comfy and the right thing to wear, common sense forecast. Check's and Plaid I think is the print that hits trend today and I am a fan, that is why I made use of that as a theme on my 22nd birthday bash. Great!

So I was browsing the net and thought of gathering pieces of clothes that I want to purchase soon. Definitely I am not a branded person, but certainly brand matters to me. But knowing my capacity and my limit of spending, sometimes, im staying at the practical side of life. Cheap finds are treasure, alteration is my adjustment to my desire.

TOPMAN is somehow my basis, something expensive but I can find time to afford it. Also, Our very own FOLDED & HUNG is definitely a nice place to go if we are talking about Good options on a very friendly and reasonable price.

Trauser shorts are my thing today, very convinient to wear. Skimpy on the knee/or above the knee shorts, pairing to either a nice printed shirt, a short sleeve polo or even the long sleeve one. (# 1) But i have to say no-no to the trauser shorts launched by topman (#2), it is almost close to the "pek-pek" shorts (excuse me for the term) that ladies wear that we used to know. Its only good on the runway... not on the real world. Ball's might peek once in a while.. not good. lolz.

If its pointed, if its comfortable, attractive? Count me in. I love shoes like that. I already have one. for a person who wants to have lengthy feet, this is certainly the solution to it. Plus, it looks nice on a boot cut fit pants, though I already have one from Wade, I still one to aqcuire one of these breathable Canvas shoes by TOPMAN (#3), (#5) and FRED PERRY (#4).

Pants.. pants.. pants.. for a not so tall guy like me, fit has always been a problem. But F&H pants and during my fitting pants trial on TOPMAN, I can say that it has been very friendly to me. I stay away from fades.. long fades and I always want the slim one.. not skinny anymore but the slim fit pants works for me. I love tribal and significant stitches accent on it on the pocket behind..thats a plus. All my jeans are in zippers, and for a change, I want the Button Ply one, just like this from TOPMAN. I like it, coz its indigo too (#6). And this played zip black pants of FOLDED & HUNG very edgy(#7).

TOP has always been the important thing. And I am so crazy about wearing polo's nowadays, more than its popularity, Check's and Plaid works for me so as the plain one. I am goin so loco for these pieces. Certainly a nice add to cabinet... let me share it with you. by Topman (#8) (#9) by F&H (#10)

Its hot, it's summer I know, but I am known for my likes for JACKET... and I want this brown puppytooth bomber of Topman. Let's all be honest, even how simple your get-up is, jacket is really the tool to hype and perk it up. Check it out.(#11)

I therefore conclude that I need to get back to business. This is one good motivation.

Eraserheads The Reunion Concert: Part 2 "THE FINAL SET"

That was August 30, of the year 2008 at The Fort open field when 4 musicians made history. I was there and I witnessed everything. That was the Most awaited, controvercial Eraserheads the Reunion Concert having Saga Events as their events organizer, the same company that brought me inside the concert giving me a perfect and clear spot, Thanx phaw.

I am a fan, their songs reminds me of my mid child hood. Songs that I tried playing with my guitar. Songs that me and my friends sing together. Songs that I tried memorizing. Their songs reminds me of our cassette player, beers and my sister who is so crazy about them most especially Ely. I just know that its not only me, a lot has this clear connection with Eheads crafted music. That's why, even The Reunion Concert was cut short, I was very happy hearing them and their instruments and seeing them 4 (Ely, Marcus, Raymond & Buddy) on one stage at one event.

Due to public demand, MTV and Smart made it possible, The Eraserheads The Reunion Concert: Part 2 "The Final Set". Happening this coming saturday, March 7, 2009 at Sm Mall Of Asia Open Ground.

This will sure make history once more.

SAMASA: Backstage Pass

It's not clear to me but somehow I understand... That It takes a lot of effort to let people understand the difference between the purest and the right intensions to a plain PR. It is really hard to play balance when the other is not playing fair. To others, saying evil words, sounds more powerful and appealing than being humble. Good intension bores other people. but truth are never a product of retaliation and I am proud to say that we are the every positive of that. & we are not going to stop kill'n people through our overwelming dignity and values.

To be blunt about it.. This may not be our time. A lot still have yet to be educated, needs to be more of a keen observer and a mix of good taste more than anything else...and we are here to provide them that. Not our time, and definitely not theirs either. It may seem unbalanced, but they can't laugh their self claimed victory out, for they know deep inside their bones.. they are in complete terrible position. Not the way they expected everything to turn out. Because cheating alone is never enough, because good people still exist. RED exist and good deeds and playing fair makes their life myserble and their nerves shaking.

Battling with the faded us is certainly not easy. They are indeed tough. But we are tougher... They are financially stable, but we are resourceful and way creative than them. They are wealthy and we are healthy. That spell's out the difference.

I just hope that students are not so blind to see... I can't blame them because in todays time, it's not only the money that people tends to steal... but they corrupt minds as well. and we are hear to stop their evil tasks... RED fights and protect. I am no asking for sympathy or try to create the change, my words are just product of my concerned mind and heart to my beloved significant land, my home... I owe a lot of things to FEU. And this is one of the things I could do to repay and continue legacy.

PASSION.PERFORMANCE.LEADERSHIP.

I am a proud SAMASA. will forever live and die SAMASA.

Anchor your link to us.....

CRAIG DAVID- Live in Manila

There are a lot of popular artist who have been here in the Philippines so as the not so popular ones in the music scene, absolutely pinoy's are great music lover and certainly they love our crowd and how we respond to the number of seats available going blocked.

I've never been this so excited about an artist coming over to share his/her great performances at the big dome. Good soothing voice, great grove and nasty heartfelt songs, I am talking about Craig David- LIVE in Manila! The concert. No doubt about it... there are a lot of people goin' loco for the tickets, aiming for a great seat that offers great view at of the performing stage, and there are people gone panic thinking how to avail a ticket.. including myself.



Its on Friday, March 27, 2009 along with his great hit's like 7-days, walking away, whats your flava'?, fill me in, Redezvous and many more. The singer song-writer Craig David will grove at the Araneta Coliseum with no limits.



Too bad Craig decided to hit manila on my poorest moment... thats the sadest part of this once in a lifetime event. but hey... I still have few days to collect some bucks for this concert, join contest probably or if im not lucky enough, I'll just try to hit youtube.com or try puzz out a pirated dvd on recto the day after LOLZ. Well, I just want to involve the fans out there who havent heard of this concert, don't ya dare miss this.

For tickets, you could visit ticketnet.com

Ticket price:

Patron Center php4,568

Patron side & Lower box php3,570

Upper A php1,943

Upper B php893

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End of RECOVERY: The sign 02/22/09

The word GOODBYE led scrolled my eye. Just when you thought everything is so damn perfect, just when you thought you have encountered too much pain and problems & nothing can bring you down... everything is just a thought... REALITY is never that, real word is a big surprise, its a trigger waiting to be pulled. GUNSHOT!

I am questioning myself... how can I continue now? My life became so routinary... a planted journal... 2 years of being a ventriloquist puppet. Its about time to regain my skeleton and be able to stand on my own.

I've learned a lot.. but learning stops here.. learning stop when it starts to hurt. I am emotionally wreck, physically tired but I can feel the sudden relief... I am still alive. I am not blaming my misfortune on you, never I consider it is... but to continue with you is what I believe is misfortune, to me and to you. I've seen the sign and I had your permission and acceptance... thank you for letting me borrow your wings before you push me off the clif.

Its ironic that we already have the solution but the formula is missing. I was loved, been taken care of, was never betrayed but deprived. When jealousy is present, heart turns to wood. When there is envy, there is competition. Happiness should not be bounded within two souls but binded souls must be shared with great hope and good foundation of trust. We are too busy finding the key, without us knowing that the door is open.

Nothing of you can help me heal all the wounds, not even a piece so I am begging. This is not easy... this is the hardest decision of my life, the most popular the happiest and the most bleeding one. Maybe the pain that I am feeling now is just a dot on what you are experiencing.. I am SORRY. Like a shout at the top of my lungs. THANK YOU, words that i will not fail to say every passing day, for being a part of my life and for all the memorie shared. I might regret this, but I might regret not doing this as well. Someone has to give in, someone needs to sacrifice. Our partnership had to much carbon, Oxygen is what we need.

Nobody Dies a VIRGIN. LIFE & LOVE fuck's us all.

Disclaimer: my words are authentic, but I don't know how far I could sustain it.

MY BIRTHDAY BASH: Checkered & Plaid Party!

There is definitely no other way I would like to celebrate my birthday but the way it turned out! So perfect for me... perfect for the three of us celebrating our birthdays and perfect for everyone who came by list, walk-in or by surprise.

The day changed everyones perspective on Friday the 13th, stereotyped as jinx, dangerous and scary. Its no jinx coz everyone felt so lucky with all the blessings seeing each other (gathering) and the blessing coming from every buckets and bottles. But the day remains dangerous and scary... coz' its raining chimney, its raining booze and the effing sizzling foods.

Its Checkered & Plaid Birthday bash! the theme of the night! And everyone is required to dress-up according to the theme. A small effort that we (the celebrants) were asking to build an extra special accent on our very special day. It turned out so pretty, as everyone came in at their best check's & plaid get up, some are worry free, some bought (mall/ Ukay-ukay) and the girls sourced-out from their dad's closet plus their giant belts. Effort appriciated and thanks to EMG! (Events Machine Group/ http://eventsmachine.multiply.com/) for the wonderful set up, creative ideas and for impossing great rules. You rock!

At one glance, you can definitely identify who are who, the guests that belongs to our party! We are like human chess boards partying to death. Not a claim but with confirmation that everyone went home satisfied. The alcohol is unbeatable, the food cramps our throat, cigar's everywhere, our delectable cake that made everyone do their thumbs up plus we gain friends that night.

This is certainly a celebration I will never forget. A well celebrated birthday and a good welcome to valentines day. Check my album... let our pictures speaks for itself.

MY PET HISTORY: tracing the trail

I am watching discovery channel, when a guy host metioned that "a person who loves & knows how to take good care of their pets well, is a good lover/partner." There you have it! Discovery host turned Joe D' Mango... His lines were striking. It hit me. I don't want to claim that the phrase is authentic, but one things for sure... I am involved... and I can't wait to figure it out.

Before I even disect what the jungle man who talks love was saying... Let me give you some trace on my Pet history (w/c I want to trace as well), so you won't think that I am a self aclaimed pet lover. Ow! I am no designer..

When I was 2 years old, I have a puppy that we named "Puppy", the ironic factor naming a dog like that is when he is already aging.. we still call him puppy... so never name you dog like that, its nice at first but awkward in the long run. Puppy is an ordinary philippine dog.. alright.. minus the euphemism .. ASKAL (Lolz).. with a mix of japanese spitz. He is a big, adorable, furry dog, bage in color. I so miss him.

After Puppy, we had several dog's... comes snoopy (mix breed) and taylor (my brothers chuwawa), I love them but I never had much attachment to them, for one particular reason, they are not mine.

It was year 1993 when I lost Puppy. I was sad and it was traumatic, I was 6 that time.

After that, I changed direction... Hydro pets. Fish catched my attention, I had tons of them. That is where my allowance goes, in a petshop near school, it was like dota or counter strike to me at that time. I am thinking if computer shops were banned 50 meters from school, I think they have to the same thing with petshops, animals can be addictive as well. hahaha.

There is a pleasure going home with a plastic of half oxygen, half water & with fish on it, as I arrived home, I went straight to my 75 gallon aquarium, and can't wait for other fish to meet their new friend & soon to be enemy. Fish foods are like candy to me... I rather buy some of that and an additional decoration to my aquarium rather than to buy a stick of chupachups or a bottle of yakult for myself. Yes, when I was in elementary, I am very skinny.


If im not mistaken, Lizard became my favorite as well. the Iguana and this water lizard with orange spots.. I can't remember what is it called. I can't even remember a good story with my lizard experience. hahahaha. Amazing but very boring pets.

My fathers love birds died, it was sad... but I was happy, because I can now accomodate a pet that I badly want, a HAMSTER! The birds cage is now empty, we have now a space where I can locate my dream rat.. a furry rat... a cute one. Guinea pig is expensive... the one with a rapunzle like hair, so hamster is definitely my choice since I can afford it too.

After all those amazing experience of wonderful pets, I found myself still searching... when I decided to go back to dog's. When my world got filled with spots, I named my dalmatian Dog "MISSY". Dalmatians are adorable, they are very playful.. but my problem with them is they can't read any of my body language unlike my other dogs, they can not distiguish high tone voice to a low tone one.. for them.. it is all the same. The peculiarity of my Missy is, she is a big fan of Squash... to a point that she mistaken every orange thing to a food... including our guests slippers that is color orange. Missy died due to Parbo.

Missy's Parbo disease was very traumatic, there was a time when I have to sleep beside her... and give her medicine every 2 hours, she stinks, so do I. She is half dead but still trying to recover... That was monday, after school.... I haven't got the chance to say goodbye. I arrived home but she is already 6 feet under. I cried.... A lot.

Then comes the most beautiful pet that I ever had, a gift from a family friend who knows im addicted to dogs... My Shitzu, his name is LUCKY. People can't help but say "ang cute.." everytime I took him for a walk, with his t-shirt on. But having a pet with extreme hair like Lucky, grooming is very expensive and needs a lot of time dedication. There was this time, when I have to go to a vet and have him go bald due to his skin disease... seeing himself on the mirror made him so depressed... seriously... maybe he doesn't like what he saw in the mirror, he looks off without a hair. He became very aggitated and snob. September of 2006, he died, with no illness, up to now.. I don't know the cause of his death. Doctor says it might be depression or heart attact.

And at present, Im taking good care of my two lovely dogs. Both are gifts. May of 2007, a cage on my door step with this black hotdog like dog... A dream dog, a german dog.. my Duchshund.. his name is Magic. He is so adorable and very kind.. also intelligent. He is very special to me. He sniffs hard, he catches mouse better than our cats. He shares his dogfood to our cat... and sleeps with our cat. He is an animal who never harms another animal regardles the kind. And my mix breed dog, a combination of Labrador and Basset... imagine that? a huggable, furry short dog.. I named her Russia. A very playful dog, guilty of Glutony, and loves to bite slippers... but not anymore, she fears my high tone voice, she knows when Im mad and she hate it... she is so big that she can't hide under chairs.. she hates it, but she does not avoid me getting mad. This is one hard headed dog but lovely.

There! there's the trace... I mean, I think I am really qualified. :)

Deciding to own a pet is never just a craze, to me, its a commitment... and maybe that is what the discovery dude with a love tongue was saying, there is indeed a lesson we could learn from owning a pet... a dog perhaps... more than the benefit of companionship, we are thought how to be responsible... saving for his/her dogfood, alloting time for his/her walk, leaving the kaartehan behind during his/her bath.. etc. I think I've been a very good Daddy to all my pets. Was I able to apply it in the so called Love (mushy.. damn!)? I dont know... but I love to figure it out... but I think only my other halve's could tell.. now tell me. Was/Am I a good lover? hahahahaha. Just text me. not here.

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